OK...so my summer blog didn't exactly make it all the way- but i think it was due to the sudden importance of Facebook and Myspace. Good times. I realise just how much time i used to spend on them now that I'm back at school- now that i cant visit them at all.
So its only the third week back and I'm going crazy already. Lack of freedom (or too much, as Lucy hastens to add) is driving me insane. Now that i actually have a social life, i cant use it to its full potential and that is why i cant wait till sixth form.
A lot has changed since my last blog. Ive now got a boyfriend who Ive managed to go nearly all the way with (but stopped at the last minute i hasten to add). But, here's the weird thing- i don't think i actually fancy him. I mean, hes all the things i SHOULD want in a boyf. Hes nice, funny, gentle, interesting....but there's no spark. Nothing dark or dangerous about him- nothing unknown. Hes not even slightly seductive, and (OK, now I'm being a REAL bitch)...not even that good looking. But, if I'm going to have a physical relationship with someone (due to the fact he doesn't talk, our relationship usually consists of us just going off in to the woods), id prefer if i actually fancied them. God...im a facking waste.
And so...enter the one male on this planet that i really really want but CANT have for several reasons: Ollie Denman. I don't even know what this boy holds over me...but the fact that hes a complete contrast to Ash (current boyf) makes him even more irresistible. Hes darkly beautiful, seductive, sexy, funny, talkative, interesting, amazing..
gah. stupid boys.
I think that sentence just about sums up my life.
Anyway, enough for this week- roll on tomorrow :)
Alex
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