Back to square one

So..its November- officially one of the most depressing months of year (apart from January according to Caseman) and life is back to square one.

Me and Dann split up about 2 weeks ago and although Im currently feeling quite numb about it- theres a part of me that wants to just give in to the temptation and let him just be in an open relationship with me. I want it so FUCKING much, but the whole point of this whole change in character that I was trying to portray, was so that I wouldnt be trodden on/walked over etc. I want to be a strong woman, able to make her own mind up and be in control of her life- not this sad, needy one without any one to be there for her.

These are the kinds of things that are going around in my head atm. And tbh, its just all very depressing.

Also, I found out early yesterday that New Dan (partner in school production) hooked up with a girl on the weekend and now theyre going out. hmm. great. there goes my chance at an actual viable relationship.
So basically all im left with is the weirdos i met/am going to meet off the internet (no, im not crazy...just desperate and able to be my real self on the internet.)

So...possible choices to keep me entertained whilst I try and find myself a new partner in crime:
- Stuart: would definatley go out with me if i asked...however, dont particularly fancy him
- Ben M: jewish. just about says it all really.
- Adam: 26. just found out im 17 (really am 16, but didnt think hed be able to handle that)... going well, but now its just NOT viable at all until i get my braces off... or else, he WILL freak
- Charlie: most likely tbh. 15 and naive about the world. can easily be tempted into sex with alcohol and cigs. hope guilt free sex will occur.
- Ollie D: mmmm. YES. however...has a girlfriend (hasnt stopped him before. and apparently, ive got this magnetic hold on him. in his words: 'if you went in for a kiss, i wouldnt be able to pull away' so, hopefully thats a reliable bet).

so yeah..theres a run down of the men in my life atm. although, my biggest problem would be the fact my sex drive is THROUGH the roof and i have no one to take it out on (mainly due to the fact im now on the pill- did i ever mention how FUN it is being a woman??)

ohh and lucy cant keep her mouth shut. Katie found out about me saying how attention seeking shes being about making shit up about her and Ollie. and then when i asked lucy about it (after she provoked me by reading my texts behind my back and then making snide comments throughout reg today, she totally denied saying anything. basically- note to self: dont tell lucy anything in future.)

Also, what with end of term coming up- work load is doubling by the day and my coursework deadlines are paramount in my life atm. first english draft in for the end of term apparently and photog should be completed by the end of xmas (trying to get a head start on that one though). ughhhh so fecking hard.

ahh well. thats an insight into my life right now. ill keep you updated.

xxx

Oh wow Alex...

Hahahaha...sometimes all you can do is laugh right?

WRONG. Ive gotten myself in serious SHIT. Got caught making out and like..gyrating against Tim on Wednesday night last week and Deputy Head got involved and everything. Thankfully Sophie was with me and so we had to endure it together and we got off EXTREMELY lightly, however...its scared the shit out of me.

Although i DO feel sorrier for Glyn (Sophie's boyf and Tim's best mate), who is now having to endure Sophie's decision making that never actually comes to a final decision. Shes basically told the poor lad that shes thinking of breaking up with him but wont necessarily do it. So right now, he's sitting on tender hooks whilst she 'makes her mind up' about having a relationship with him. I'm just thinking....JESUS. Let the poor boy be! She's blaming him for everything, never shuts up, never lets him be, is always telling him off and constantly and just generally annoying him. He even complained and bitched about her to Holly on the phone the other night (admittedly...he was drunk...but STILL). I'm just questioning whether this relationship is really worth them having. But then again, its not my place to say, right?

Anyway...I'm back for 6th form preview this week. Did an assault course/ team builing day today at an RAF camp to introduce all the new girls. Seen one that i simply cant take my eyes off called Issie (probably a right bitch, but she is SO HOT). However...she seems to be a bit reserved as in she's being forced to start at my school. Not sure. Will have to investigate.

Tomorrow sees the start of 6th form and the introduction to 6th form life. Exciting stuff. Cant wait :) And then at the weekend, Tim's coming up to my house to meet my family, see my house, live my life away from London for a few days. Scary stuffs. But I just hope theres stuff to do and that we're not just sitting around and getting bored (ie. he thinks I'm a boring sod and wishes he was at home doing nothing Tim-Style.)

But there we are.. that's life atm for me.

Wish me luck for the weekend people of the Internet- much love
xxx

'Everybody's screaming'

song that's been going around my head for a while- dont worry, I'm not completely insane yet.

Soooo...I'm still sitting at work, at my desk, like i have been for the past 3 days, wondering if I will ever actually be like this in the future or whether my destiny holds some other mind boggling path for me. Worryingly, i don't think its the latter- i think that one day all my life may consist of is a 9-5/6 job that sucks all the life energy out of me and then leaves me hanging from one day to the next. Don't get me wrong- the stability of it is FAB...and its not all that hard anyways. But its just got me to thinking is all.

Like for example, this morning i was at reception sitting at the front desk for about 3 hours...staring into space and basically, doing fuck all. It was riveting. And then I had chats with a really nice girl (I say 'girl'..she was probably a woman, but looked about 18. haha) who was the head receptionist funnily enough. She told me her life story and it turns out she dropped out of a hairdressing course at college and became a receptionist at G2. Funny world really. But it cant be very fun- she sits there...looks at emails...answers the phone...types a bit...re-fills paper into the printers. And theres me thinking- wtf?! this girl must be shit bored the entire time. I truly felt sorry for her. But then the packet of Marlborough she took out her bag didn't make me feel so sorry for her anymore but a bit jealous in a way. Her life must be rather uncomplicated tbh. Shes going to LA this October to celebrate her dad's 50th which is fair enough and everything but daymnnn. Id KILL to go to LA...or any other decent part of America for that matter.

Anyways...so today i had a bit of a task- i was asked to go out and get some food for this meeting that i was meant to be sitting in on, but I'm not really up to walking into a board room full of people and making myself known before sitting down in a corner and taking notes on something that doesn't really concern me. 'Meh' I thought to myself. Id have more fun just sitting on my computer updating blog spot and facebook for the next hour. Fun times indeed.

And thennn, Ive got to try and get away for about 4.30 because Tim is having a birthday picnic/thing to celebrate his 18th. Big number and um...SHIT presents on my behalf. I got him a guide to Spain, a pair of heart sunglasses and a muse poster as well as a card i made him, a slave for a day voucher and I'm giving him one of my beaded necklaces so he can wear it and think of me (he wanted something along those lines anyway).
I'm just hoping that it doesn't look too shit in comparison to everyone elses presents...not that i think they've got him anything...
Although Holly will have made him something and Sophie's got him a big pink '18th birthday' badge. Quite funny. Alssooo i bought him 2 chocolate cupcakes and a big '1' and '8' candle to put in each one. Just hoping that they'll fricking light this time, unlike Holly's birthday cake (stupid idea, stupid candles)

Anywayyss...i should probably look around and ask people if they want something doing. Much love to you all

xxx

At work

So wow...this is weird. I'm sitting at a desk in an office in the middle of London just off oxford st. And i feel so WEIRD.

lol. D of E was the BIGGEST challenge I have ever had to endure- i have about 6 blisters on each foot, sunburn on my neck and arms, bruises all over my body etc etc. NEVER AGAIN i tell you NEVER AGAIN. And technically, I don't ever have to again. yay :)

I wont waste time on filling you in about D of E- it was the biggest waste of my life and the most painful waste, which i hasten to forget so for the time being...not going to bother with that. On the other hand, Ive got a busy few days ahead. Work until Thursday, Paris Friday, 6th form exp Next Monday through till Friday and then Sports Day Saturday (and then Tim, Glyn and Soph are coming up to my plaace for a long weekend. Should be good times!!)

Met up with Tim in London on Thursday- not the best idea seeing as I had a long long long weekend ahead of me but daym. We progressed a lot. Ive got brusies on my neck...again. Yes, he's already found my weak spots. Hahaha. Ironic really. And umm yeah.
I was on D of E and I found out that apparently Tim is thinking that i want to have sex with him at my house (on that weekend after sports day) and i just though- WOAH. hold on there a second pleasee. Ive known you for what..? A month?? Been going out with you for about 3 weeks now?? SLOWTHAFACKDOWN. jeebus. I'm not THAT desirable surely?? ahahhaa

ahhh well. Must get back to work- i feel a bit bad now. lolzz.

Love to you all xxxx

Finally Facking Finished

THANK GOD.

But now I'm sitting at home on my laptop for the second time this day wondering wtf I'm going to do with myself whilst I'm at home...lazing around...eating myself silly... doing fuck- all etc. It's worrying how little I have to do with myself now.

But hey! Summer 09 is finally here after a horrible 5 week slog of exam after exam after exam. Which is truly truly fab. Days lazing in the sun, seasonal fruit, swimming outdoors, trampolining in the back garden, summer tunes, beach parties...fun times indeed.

But I can't help but long for my London home town. It's great being back at home away from all the stress and hassle of London life but tbh, I'd rather be there and have something to do rather than be at home and not have anything at all to do with myself. I'm tempted to hack onto my sister's laptop and play sims2. Yes....I'm THAT bored already. Which is sad, because I'm not usually a very 'bored-easily' type of person.

In this case I might get Tim up to stay at some point. Wow. That would be weird.

But we're getting on much better now which is awesome. Had a incredible weekend with the gang last weekend- Saturday: THE REUNION. Was fabb. Sophie and Glyn got together after a bit of persuasion...we hung out around London, saw all the touristy things including Her Maj's pad. Twas fab.

Ooh. And me and Tim held hands the whole day and then had our first make out session on the train back to Holly's house. :) not bad not bad. Just a few tips on what I like and he'll be perfect! lol

The Sunday came and we went to the Marylebone Festival- which was awesome. Saw loads of fab live bands and met and got signatures from some of the following people:

• Koala Friday- Fab and funky
• 10p Short- amazingly good people
• Kadesa Drija- 16 years old and AMAZING
• RubyLux- (MY LIFE)

So yeahhh. All in all, twas a very fun weekend out :)

Hoping for some more fab London adventures out with the gang some time soon! Should be good. After all, we have the beach party in August to look forward to and Tim's birthday week in a caravan. Should be awesome hopefully!

Anyways peeps...I'm going to go and try and do something constructive- love to you all

x

3 left...3 left...3 left...

3 exams that is. I don't think I can take it anymore.

Ive come past the point of simply not caring to ignoring any attempts at revision and reading slash day dreaming instead. I.JUST.DONT.GIVE.A.FLYING.FUCK.ANYMORE.
I want summer and I want it now DAMMIT!

I honestly can't tell you how much I want my bed back at home right now and the ability to just watch films all day, stay up at night on babble and facebook and just generally wasting my life away. Oh...and being able to eat cous cous, mozzarella and crisps to my hearts content. Although, I have vowed to get in shape for the looming holiday in August and most importantly the beach party during Tim's caravan week for his birthday. meh.

GAAAAAHH I NEED TO REVISE AND I SIMPLY CANNOT BE FUCKED. THIS KILLS ME.

3 left....3 left...3 left...
god help me.

x

UGH.

cba with anything anymore. just nothing, ZILCH, nowt.

dont even talk to me about exams- I have a biology extended theory paper tomorrow and all i can think about is my bed and a good book waiting for me. I.AM. SHATTERED. doesnt help that the past few nights Ive been caning it.
Friday night i went to the army/navy club in St. James sq. with caseman to go see her dad and gale (her step-mum). Had some BLOW OUT meal which included a three course meal, 2 diet cokes, half a bottle of rose and a bottle of sparkling water....THEN when i got back to the house (after several wrong turns in the tube stations and screaming about mice) i was quite happily already drunk. Then Rachel poured more vodka down my neck to get me explicataley pissed.
Then Miss Mac walks in and asks rachel if she's pulled down her blinds and closed her windows because there were two men outside the house and he had just perved on everyone in the common room. We were like: 'fuck!' and went to console the others who were shaking crying messes. By this point, the police had chased down and arrested the two youths and we were all fine. Stayed in bed with rachael until 2am. (facking brilliant)

Saturday then arrived...to be started at 8am with a facking fire alarm. And dont get me wrong...im all for evacuation and shit like that in a fire...but when its a 'change in the atmosphere of the upstairs bathroom caused by a shower' and i have a HUGE hangover...im not a happy bunny. After that escapade, we trecked to the cinema to see a film. Originally going to be 'Angles And Demons' but that wasnt showing until later and so i chose to see star trek with Caseman and Adele. BEST DECISION OF MY LIFE. hahahaaha we were pissing ourselves in the back row. Im officially a fan girl :D

Theeeennn got back to the house, to recieve a phone call from Tim who had come all the way in to london from chelmsford and then back up to ricki to come and see me. We met up, had chats, took a walk, had more chats, went to the common room to watch the end of a film and cuddled up (was tres cute). And he bought me a bear! :D he's so adorably cute. Kissed him goodbye at the gates (just a peck...i dont want to scare him off). hope that was ok with him. Although i could tell he wanted more, i dont want to push it too quickly.

Im going to be seeing a lot of him over the summer. Not so much in July, but in august, we're having a caravan partaay for his birthday, then a beach party somewhere down near chelmsford to that we can stay round their house for the night (hopefully, they'll be able to drive by then!).
Should be fun timmesss

anyways...im shattered...i need to nick the new Red Jumpsuit Apparatus album off of Adele, cram for tomorrow and HIDE FROM SOPHIE. I swear that girl is going to be the death of me.

Niiight xxx

Breathe.

If i just breaathhee... :D i love this song.

OMG new moon trailer is out- and WOW it looks good. Taylor Lautner alone is simply gorgeous...and i have to say how disappointed i am at Rpattz's + Kristen Stewart's acting. How tragic. The only good thing is going to be TL topless for the entire movie (loves how fickle I am).

Alsssooo...on the Tim front. I am in a weird mood atm. Not really feeling the sexual tension any more (although, we had a convo last night where i practically asked him if he would be OK with sex before marriage- DONT ASK. He's like...super christian or something). Anyway..so yeah. I mean, i know this is sad, but I'm already missing him and any part of our relationship that isn't 'Hey, so how was your exam today'. It doesn't help that Ive used up all my free texts for this month either. God, I'm tragic.

I CANNOT wait until these next two weeks are over.
1) I get to see Tim
2) END OF EXAMS
3) Start of summer
4) No more school (technically) until September
5) I'M SO FUCKING BORED OF SCHOOL.

Although I'll miss everyone and the general fun that school provides, I simply cannot be fucked to do this anymore. I'm SO tired too- Physics revision is just a waste of my time tbh. And i have to go facking choir rehearsal again today...i think i was meant to learn something too :S ah well...

Its not like i actually give a shit about anything anymore. God I really am tired.

Aitte. I'm awff before i actually say something I don't mean.. like the above,
lovess xxxxx

Wow.

so....i think someone has just committed themselves to me...for reasons other than sexualnosity.

Tim likes me. Like...really likes me. And I'm in a state of shock tbh.

This is amazing- truly it is, don't get me wrong. But there are so many things that are wrong about this whole 'relationship' thing:

• Tim is 18 on July 2nd
• He goes to University in September
• He's so so so lovely
• I form attachments to people super quickly
• This is going to break my heart

Are those reasons enough to keep me from being with him though?

Do I think I'm going to survive another heartbreak?

Well, i honestly don't know. I don't know what to do.

The real problem behind all this is, I think that i may love him already.

x

finished.

So...i finished my exams before Half Term today. I swear...this feeling is GREAT. Goodbye Stress for another few days. mwhahahaha.

Was talking to Jess in lunch just now and realise that i have been mis-informed. Tim, is not in fact a man whore as Sophie has told me. Apparently he has not has sex or ever had a girlfriend for that matter. Crikey. I've got to be nice to this one then.

Not that i can say that I've had that much experience with either of these topics over the duration of my 16 years on this planet...but then again...if he's never had a GF or sex for that matter- he must really like me.

*shocked face*


MUST. NOT. READ. IN. TO. THIS.

ohh lord help me.

x

New developments

TIM. LIKES. ME.

wtf just happened?

lmaooo...i seriously can't believe this- apparently the hot blond guy from Saturday (see last post) likes the look of me. HAHA. this is such a compliment. also...the fact that i kind of like the look of him as well just adds to the excitement of it all. I mean...Saturday- i kind of noticed something, but i just put it to the back of my mind. He was meant to have been set up with Katie anyway.. lol.

I'm seriously SO touched by it all. Apparently Tim told Glyn- his mate at the Saturday thing who then told Jess who then told Sophie who then told me. hahha this is such a twisted plot.

Is it weird that I'm so happy? :D

OK...just must not get my hopes up. play it cool. the 'ushe'. haha. i can just tell I'm going to fuck this up. God be with me- i don't think i could handle another failed relationship.
*says a mini prayer*

Thank you world :)
x

She's such a charmer

gotta love Kings of Leon.





Best day out today in London :D Went to Hyde park with Holly and all her other mates for a huge picnic and general day of fun. Twas fabb. Met so many new people and I wasn't even the social reject (for once...I'm usually the rejected quiet one making flirty eye contact with people way out of my league and never have the balls to go up to them and say 'hi'). But anyway...i met the infamous Mikey Yomans (no idea how to spell that) who apparently slept with one of the girls from my school in a hotel room whilst Holly and another mate of mine was in there during the Model United Nations weekend. He was so awfully nerdy it just made me laugh. But i can see (weirdly enough), why the girls like him...well...i say 'girls'. I mean whores.





*shifty look*





There WAS a beautiful blond guy there though...funny teeth, but he was a Russel Howard look alike. lovely lovely boy. AND i could tell he had a GORGEOUS back underneath that tight/loose top he was wearing. *swoons*





Also, talked a bit more to Tom...(Sophie's stalkerish man candy who she keeps denying that she loves). Didn't realise how FUNNY he was! That guy actually cracks me up. I would LOVE it if he and Sophie actually got it together. They would be SO cute AND hilarious. brilliant stuffs.





Really really worried about maths on Monday. I'm facked. 21/70 just ISN'T going to wash with the examiners. ahhhhhhhhh. HELP. However, i say this... and SHOULD be revising, but i just cant find the will power after a long day out in London town. TWAS pretty draining...but DAMN it was good :)



Also...i think I'm slightly in love...:



Jared Followill. ♥
If god inhabited an American..it's him.

Anyway...I'm awff to waste my life away and fail my maths exam. wish me luck you beautiful people

xxx

My pug.

When I'm older, I'm getting a pug and calling it Hitler.

He will be my one and only companion and we shall be best friends forever.

Oh how I love black humour.

x

Contemplative.

Surprised myself today. Have done 3 exams so far and haven't actually committed suicide. Am feeling quite happy about my performance and revision is going mildly well. Surprising? Very.

Had such a good day today :) revision in non-uniform in the revision house. Very relaxing indeed. Managed H.E. and Chemistry revision. sound. Just now, had lunch, (mushroom soup was TO DIE FOR), computeredededed for the rest of the time, collected Chem paper (3 marks off a C! not baad), went back to the revision house and watched the end of an episode of 'The Inbetweeners', visited the H.E. rooms to beg my teacher to let me bake my mate a cake for her birthday thing on Saturday (permission granted!) and now I am here...mainly to print off chemistry papers that will in no way help me...but may shed some light on this incomprehensible subject. Meant to be at a History revision clinic now, but really there is no point in going as i can just collect the sheets at the end and write up notes from someone else. Doing IS learning, children...remember that.

So all in all, not a bad day. Later i have practise in the music dep. and then might go and do some exercise/ shop for ingredients for Holly's Birthday cake. Exercise SHOULD take priority, seeing as I'm starting to really feel the stairs on my way to registration, however...the enjoyment of another human being does settle closer to my heart..(amongst the vast stores of building fat). I make myself sick.

Anyway...things to look forward to (MUST.KEEP.SPIRITS.HIGH.DURING.EXAMS):

• Holly's birthday thaang in Hyde Park on Saturday
• English revision (I haven't revised a subject I actually enjoy in a LONG time. I'm not insane..ish)
• Finishing exams by Wednesday next week before Half Term strikes and I can FINALLY earn some money to buy music and clothes with *nearly bursts from excitement*
• Gossip Girl and Waterloo Road
• SLEEP. and being able to read my book.

Although these things may seem trivial and silly to be getting excited about, they are those things which are currently keep me alive. so DO NOT feel sorry for me and my lack of a social life. Not that you would anyway... I should be feeling sorry for you, reading my blog. Poor poor poor bored person on the Internet- what are you DOING with your life??

:D love you all really.

Speak soon lovelies

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Exams

WHY?

I cannot believe I'm nearly having to take exams. Next week is my first one- shitting myself...(and by next week, that terminology will no longer be figurative). Why this country continues to scare its young inhabitants to death with shitty exams, i have no idea.

I feel for you all.

Ive decided- if I don't have any hope in hell of getting a boyfriend in...hmm...say 3 years, then i will become a call girl. Its decided. Full on...decision made. I'm convinced Ill make a good call girl- friends come to me for sex advice (a friend, Wight, came to me yesterday and demanded I helped her with phone sex conversations with her 21-yr-old boyf. Have to say...I was slightly honoured), I dedicate practically all my spare time to thinking about sex...writing sex books, reading sex books and watching pornography. Oooh- new idea just occurred. Erotic photographer? get to look at naked people all day.. AND get to be creative?

hmm...might just try and make it as an erotic author instead. Mills & Boon would be delighted to have me :) (so a good friend told me on Sunday night)

In the mean time I will continue with my degree and plan wtf I'm going to do with my life. Travelling sounds good- but my one problem on THAT behalf is.... money. I am hoping to solve this problem this summer by applying to local Horse event back home and some part-time as a waitress. It wouldn't be much, but it would be something to put towards my travelling/ language learning courses/ uni degree.

If not...then as I said- i could just become a call girl. End of.

Idolising people atm. I'm longing for some form of life. As at the moment, all it consists of is 'revision' (aka skiving, chatting and watching films) and thinking about sex. But then again...when is that ever different from any other moment of my free time?

Anyway, i must go to practice. France tour is coming up and I'm missing enough rehearsals as it is what with exams.

Love to you all,

Alex
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I think this consitutes the worst year of my life so far...

So..i had my birthday party this weekend.

And Alex kissed Maddie. INFRONT of me. oh yeah...and then he made me kiss her in front of him.

I feel like someone has stabbed me in the chest- ripped me in half. torn my heart to absolute shreds...and then eaten it. i havent slept in about 3 days...cant eat a half decent meal without wanting to push my fingers back down my throat... all in all- im a bit of a mess atm.

I think whats hurt me most of all, is the fact that i now realise my true feelings for Alex. Its weird,.... but i think i might love him. If i didnt- would i really be in this much pain? I cant tell...but all i know is that it hurts a FUCK load.

Still havent spoken to Maddie about it yet. Everyones warning her not to talk to me- and with good reason i should expect. I think if she even attempted to talk to me at this precise moment then i would be tempted to slap her, call her a stupid, theaving dirty blonde whore and then leave her in a crying mess- and i probably wouldnt feel bad about it tbh.

As for Alex...i dont know what im going to do. i dont feel angry with him for some reason. maybe its because i dont care about him as much as i do maddie, or maybe its because i love him so much, that its hard to hate him. I cant figure this all out- so tomorrow calls for another Nikki B appointment. One o'clock sharp. i just hope i can figure this out before i go downhill again.

I nicked one of Alex's shirts at the weekend, just so i have a part of him that i can keep. I know that i can never have him all to myself- that would be just greedy tbh. And all though he thinks its the other way around- he's far to good for me. So this is my little bit of sanctimony. I curl up with it at night and just hold it, while the tears fall down my cheeks continuously.

i might take casemans advice and go on a sabatical- it sounds quite good fun.

anyway...i can only hope that things get better from here on in. Wish me luck, people of the internet. i love you all

Alex
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Annoyed

So 2009 here we are...and i can already tell that this year is going to be shittier than the last...
But comme on. 2008 was GLORIOUS. absolutely fab. achieved so much, went so many places, went up on the social scale, made new mates, had a boyf, got further on the pulling scale.. ect ect i could go on.

But 2009 is here and whaat is happening. This already seems to be the most stressful year of my life and it really hasn't even started yet- its only 28th Jan!

GCSEs are looming, coursework needs to be done, syllabuses are falling out of my eyes and life just seems to be spinning past me and possibly leaving me behind. ALSO....my birthdays coming up ad muv is asking for a bday list and i don't really know what to ask for. First year of my life that THAT has happened. AAAANNDD...my ipod is facked. Wont sync with the itunes library, so may end up getting a new ipod for the second year running on my bday.

Right now, I'm late for Taekwondo...having just spoken to Mr Buddie in Zetland RE:my ipod. Just mucking around with it some more before venturing down to the sports hall...which i really don't want to do now. Ive had suuch a hectic week.

Monday: Swimming training, Back to school from exeat
Tuesday: MUN+H2H training
Wednesday: Choro + H2H training
Thursday: today...so far not so good.

Have a fack load of work to do, shouuuld be at taekwondo- I'm going to get it in the neck from Sophie anyway, so may as well not bother going. Trying to be nice to that girl is really hard- you either lick her bum for your life of you just say the odd nice thing to her, she takes it the wrong way and you end up fighting all the time. Its just so bloody HARD.

Ipod is finally doing something. Having to format the entire bloody thing now. Should take ages...so might be able to miss TKWD.

In fact...i may just wonder down there with it and put it to one side while working out...i feel like i should do somee kind of exercise seeing as sport was pointless today- caseman fell over and has badly injured her ankle- had to wheel her up to the san in a wheelchair- bloody hilarious. Couldn't stop laughing. I love that girl so much :)

Friday should be entertaining....making a video for Dann and Mel has decided she wants to 'help out'. So jokes :) Also, have videoed H2H dance in just our underwear so might send that too. hahaha :D he's going to have a shock when he realises that.

right...probs gonna take laptop down to SH. Will tap back again soonish hopefully.

I love you people of the Internet!

Alex
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