Today i realised that i have been very silly.
Having spoken to my singing teacher for my entire singing lesson once again (this time on the subject of potential boyfriends, the pressure of having one etc etc) i realise that i have been giving out the totally wrong vibes.
I have to acknowledge the fact that yes, i do want a boyfriend but i also have to realise that i have to be comfortable in my own skin before i go making any brash decisions. My teacher told me about one of her friends that is single, happy and gorgeous- has men falling at her feet, and yet she doesn't want a boyfriend. She just goes with the flow. I really wish i could be like her.
In fact, i think and hope that that is what I'm going to do from now on. I do want a boyfriend, but i have to make the world believe that i don't want one, act happy (and be happy!) in my own skin and not feel that a man/ boy will complete me and make me ecstatically happy. This sounds incredibly easy to do on a computer screen- but by god ...its going to be tough in real life.
Right. This is it. The start of a new Alex. A happier Alex, a fresher Alex. I just hope that i can make this work. I need to stop chasing happiness and just let the good times roll.
Love to you all,
Alex
xxxxxx
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