Today is 84 days to my birthday- 3 days after Adele's and 18 days until school finishes for Christmas (and one month to Christmas as Kim has just reminded me :)...and tbh i dnt want it to end. This academic year has gone really well so far...its amazing how many memories you can make in just one term. Ive gotten closer to sooo many people..found out a few things that have scared me and a few things that have surprised me. Feelings have grown and weakened..and Ive had and dumped a boyfriend in the space of about 3 weeks. Its weird but I'm not even wanting anyone else. Normally id be straight back on the playing field but this time i really don't feel the need...strange. But i think Ive come to terms with the fact that guys at my age don't really want the things that i want in a relationship. Its rather sad...but very very true.
At then end of the whole Olly-Me thing I've decided that I'm just going to be myself around guys..including the ones i like- and if they don't like me for who i really am..then they can stuff it- right? Cos whats the point in going out with someone who only wants you for one thing (that's not to say i don't want that 'one thing' to happen!).
I'm still in the midst of deciding whether or not to put this blog on the Internet for my friends to look at...cos I've decided that I'm going to be completely honest to myself in this blog and not just for the benefit of other people. Ill think about it tonight. :)
Along with a certain person who i caught looking at me in KMK today. ARGHH its probably nothing but they have rather lovely eyes...mental attitude and an amazing height. what is it with guys?? they have this power over the female species that whenever they see them..or touch them (even in the slightest 'oh sorry' or 'excuse me' way) that they just feel like curling up and dying if they really really like them.
They really are amazing...even if i don't want to face that fact most days.
Anyway...so much for my first blog :) i really should get back to the house...learn my English monologue, read, sleep, drink (aarrgh my kidneys are killing me recently) and yearn for some one to lust after...because tbh the certain person at KMK is most likely to be a mistake of eye contact.. :) lets face it people...
Night x
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